I am not superstitious, but I always feel an obligation to be happy and celebrate New Year’s for no other reason than the belief that the way you spend midnight on New Year’s Eve is an indicator of how your next year will go. This year, I chose not to go back to visit my family for New Year’s, and my closest friends are off doing their own things, so I’m facing the realization that I may have to spend New Year’s without people who are close to me. It’s a bad omen. This whole week has been pretty shitty to me and I don’t even feel like celebrating, but still, there’s that sense of obligation.
Unlike many people, I am not so much into the getting-shitfaced-drunk-to-make-myself-feel-better thing, so now I’m really in a quandary. Do I go to some party with people I don’t know all that well and pretend to like the smell of cheap vodka and the loud distorted music, or… hmm, well I suppose the only other option is to sit at home by myself and eat ice cream while watching some octogenerian TV host struggle to smile through Botox-infused face-lifted plaster of leathery skin as he does the countdown to 2007. Maybe cheap vodka isn’t so bad after all. Sad.
How are you spending New Year’s Eve?